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Toni Braxton Reveals Thoughts That Son’s Autism Was God’s Punishment For Abortion

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Toni Braxton opens up about some of her most personal thoughts in her new memoir Unbreak My Heart.

The singer reveals that she once believed that her 11-year-old son Diezel’s autism was a punishment from God for her decision to have an abortion in 2001 after conceiving a child with ex Keri Lewis.

Because a very religious upbringing, Braxton was immediately overcome with guilt over the abortion.

“I was suddenly faced with a choice I’d never thought I’d have to make,” the songstress writes, “Amid my major misgivings about abortion, I eventually made the gut-wrenching decision.”

Braxton continued: “In my heart, I believed I had taken a life — an action that I thought God might one day punish me for … My initial rage was quickly followed by another strong emotion: guilt. I knew I’d taken a life … I believed God’s payback was to give my son autism.”

However, the 46-year-old Grammy winner that she has moved on from her initial thoughts and now feels differently.

“When my youngest son was diagnosed with autism I feared that I was being punished for my earlier actions. I have since realized that my son is special and learns in a different way,”  she explained to Us Weekly.

Unbreak My Heart, which is now available, also covers Braxton’s financial struggles through two bankruptcies and her health scares.

(Photo Credit: Instagram/Toni Braxton)